Un-Connected
It’s hard to believe that I’ve been here almost eleven months. There are days when it seems like it’s gone by so very fast and others when it drags on endlessly and I feel like I’ll never get home again to see my family. Lately, I guess the excitement of almost leaving here has made it drag on more than usual and I miss home more than anything.
I’m not even sure why I miss home though. Since I’ve been here, I felt more love and support from people I don’t even know than I’ve gotten from my family. A few months after we got here, one of my leaders noticed that I don’t get a lot of mail and put out a list of things I liked- Doritos, sweet pea bath and body works stuff and books- and I’ve gotten so many packages lately from people I don’t even know that I could open my own library and have supplied all the females (and some males) in my unit with sweet pea lotion. I get cards, letters and emails from people all over the country, full of support. The comments on my posts come from people all over who are supportive of what we are doing here. And I’ve met so many great people here who I would never have met if I hadn’t had this opportunity.
I haven’t gotten mail from my parents for the last five months. When I talk to them on the phone they complain about getting my bills and storing my stuff. They’re impatient for me to come home, but sometimes it feels like it’s more of a convenience thing than anything. My grandma still writes me letters sometimes and I love them.
Most of my friends seem to have gotten caught up in their own lives and forget I’m here. I hear from them when something happens or if they’re really drunk and especially missing me. My fiancé is finally home and safe and I hoped maybe I’d hear from him more, but he’s been busy too, I guess.
All the technology that we have to make us feel more connected has made me feel more isolated, when I go to check my email and there’s nothing there or when I call home and no one answers.
My friends here are wonderful. Our small unit has really bonded and we’ve grown to know each other, good and bad. I’ve met so many different people from all over the US here who, through their friendships have taught me about life, love and happiness. It’s not that I don’t want to get home and get on with my life, but I’ll be leaving behind some really great friends and I’m really glad I had this experience to teach me things.
6 Comments:
O.K. girl here goes,you need to know that I read your posts everyday that you write. I come here daily sometimes twice to check on new posts. Anytime you need an extended family to visit, I am thinking that you would fit right in here. Please know you are not alone out there, there are plenty of people out here just sucking you right into their hearts!!
You hang in there!
I know that in my life it is the people that I've met after leaving home that have sustained me and become like family for me. Especially back when I was in the military. I am so grateful for all of those people. I now live 2,000 miles from my family of origin and I have roots here and my own little family to tend now. You make your life and I am glad that there are good people around you to give you the support and love that you need. You will always need that. Take good care and stay safe. My girls and I pray for you every night.
God bless you and all who server their country. You can be proud of your terrific attitude. Each night we pray for all military and their families as we say our grace at dinner. I am sorry that you have to be so far away but know that the hearts of many at home are with all of you. Our niece is home safely from Iraq so now we are addicted to the anysoldier.com website and are sending packages. It is helpful to hear a little about you daily life. Be home for the holidays next year!
The K's in Texas
Sometimes people would rather talk to people they love and miss about bills and inconvenience because it creates a little space between them and you that makes it easier to keep the worry under control.
You are special and will make home anywhere you are. That is a wonderful quality.
Thanks for everything you are doing!
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